Update from Paula 10/9/10

Eric has wanted me to give an update for some time so that everyone can hear from me.  Written communication is not one of my gifts so therefore I avoid it.  With that said, I will do my best to communicate how I’m doing.

First, I want to say thank you again to everyone that has called, texted, emailed, sent messages on Eric’s Facebook page, sent cards, gifts, humbly served us, etc.  Wow!!  I also want to say a huge thank you to everyone who has been praying for my family and me.  I know that people all around the world have been praying for me, most of which I don’t even know.  Even though I feel so undeserving of the many people praying, I’m very grateful and have felt the power of pray covering me through this journey.

As many of you know, I have had a peace and calm since the morning of August 23^rd, the day this journey started for me.  Two things that came to me on the morning of my ultra sound was first, I know that Jesus is in control of my situation and second, His will was going to be done.  These things have continued to hold true for me everyday since.  I have had a few moments of discouragement or frustration, like frequent trips to the bathroom and aching hips, bum and lower back due to the many trips to the bathroom and sitting on the toilet.  When I refocus on the One (Jesus) that really matters in all of this, I quickly feel His calm and peace, know that He is in control and that his will is going to be done.

Many of you may not understand the peace and calm that I have had. You even may feel that I’m in denial, or not being realistic about my diagnosis, but that is ok.  From the moments after we received my diagnosis, I’ve wanted Jesus to get all the glory and praise through all of this no matter what we are told, how long the treatments last, test results, pain, discomfort, etc.  This holds true for me even today!!

Jesus has been giving me manna each day that has sustained me with the peace, calm and strength that I have needed for each day.  His blessing of this manna has been wonderful and I’m so grateful for his love and faithfulness.  As I have had to lie in bed so much over the past month due to fatigue I have tried to take advantage of this by reading or listening to the Bible, enjoying worship music and praying.  This has reinforced the knowledge of how important it is to spend time with God and how in doing so He is faithful to give us what we need for each day.  In the good days (like this week) and even in the tough days like the first weeks of chemo God is the same and can be trusted to work all things out according to His will and in His timing. (Hebrews 13: 8, Romans 8: 28)

This is getting long so I will end for now.  My prayer for each of you is that you will be blessed and have a stronger faith as you follow my journey.

Love, Paula

We got out to enjoy a little of the seasons beauty

Fall colors in the mountains

Paula resting after treatment with her little companion.

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